rigidridr's Cancer Blog

June 16, 2008

I am not "cancer"

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Before my cancer I can not remember anyone asking me how I was feeling or how I was doing. As if my cancer has defined me as a sick person for the rest of time. I know folks mean no harm, and their concern is nice, but, dammit I am not this infernal disease!

I am still me, a long haired, overfed, sleeping gnome. A biker that will ride right up to the gates of hell, just to laugh at the devil. A father and a husband and a lover. A mechanic and a welder and sometimes an angry angry man. But I am not and never will be some candy ass victim!

I have cancer but cancer sure as hell does not have me. I do not want people to look at me with pity, save it for someone who needs it. Look at me as a survivor.

Envy my grasp of the reality that life is a vapor. Rejoice with me as you see me beat back this attack on my person. Cheer with me as you would any warrior that is standing with sword raised, daring an enemy to attack.

Don’t show me pity! Help me fight or get out of my way.

Thank you for allowing me to get that off my chest. I will now retire to the couch with my blanket and my Yorkie for a nap. Later I will return to kick someone’s ass and yell for wenches and ale.

Mac

Posted on June 16, 2008 at 1:48:51 PM by Mac ( I am not "cancer", 5 comments)

That brought a smile to my face. I couldn’t have even began to say it better myself.

I’m very happy that you are feeling okay enough to kick some ass.

Posted on June 16, 2008 at 2:16:04 PM by gemmag

Thank you! Reading your blog made me smile and defined exactly how cancer makes you feel. I’m so sick and tired of running into people and them looking at me with sympathy and in a half-whisper say, “I heard about you…how are you doing?” It pisses me off! I know they mean well and I always manage a smile and tell them I’m doing great thanks for asking! I would rather they said, I’ve heard about you and I’m your friend and I’ll stand beside you while you fight. Mac, please know I’m your friend and will be honored to stand beside you and fight.

Hugs,
Dana

Posted on June 16, 2008 at 5:07:13 PM by Dana (unverified)

Right on Mac! You always make me laugh.

Posted on June 16, 2008 at 8:26:01 PM by jill

I alwasy enjoy reading your thouhgt and/poems.Though I was dx in 10/94 with chronic myelogenus Leukemia and at that time they did not hace all that is availale to them now. I am so thsnkful. I had a Bone Marrow Biopsy on June 4
, 2008 and I will be getting the results on June 19. WIshing you luck and good health, Patty

Posted on June 16, 2008 at 8:43:33 PM by ibpatti32

Here Here! you said it all…..

Cheryl58

Posted on June 17, 2008 at 1:54:21 PM by cheryl58